Romancin' d Pain...

I nurtured you,
I sheltered you
On the thought, you’ll be rectified
Once things are settled
You’ve conned me into hoping
I’ll learn something from our affair

You gave me something to feel
From which I’ve become too fixated
It took over me, without warning
You made me reveal everything
Even the dark side of me,
Which I tried so hard to conceal

Your occasional visits
Turned into a permanent lodging
I did not complain
Even treated you like my king
And though I know, your company
Would be my emotional flagellation… still, here I am

I wish we’ve never been acquainted
I wish I never felt
How tender your existence made me feel
But it’s quite too late now
For salvation to come and rescue me
I guess I’m doomed to be with you eternally

Must I love you still?
Even if it would cost me my sanity
Must I linger with you?
Even if tears decant unceasingly
Must I still believe in you?
Knowing all along, you’ve always believed in me